Whenever I am stressed I can’t breathe when I sleep therefore I can’t sleep tonight. I grew very sick earlier this year, and am sad to say I am still sick. Right now my eyes are heavy and dying to rest, but I can’t let them. For, whenever I start to drift off to sleep my body jerks me awake because I am not breathing.
I went to various doctors and was tested for a variety of things. Finally one understood what happened to me. Stress produces acid, and in my case so much that it creeps into my lungs. Basically ‘acid reflux’ had in my case taken a weird turn. I thought I was better but I’m not.
I had to find an apartment and move within two days while I was working full-time, which shook up my sense of security and made me sick again. But I know it’s more than just anxiety- it’s also my own choices.
Last night I agreed to do a little coke in a club with friends. I did probably 1/5 of a line, like nothing, but felt pretty good. Last night I woke up not breathing. Now I can’t fall asleep or I will stop breathing again.
I would give anything to sleep now and anything to not be sick. But…I am.
