“See that guy and girl? She is dressed like a slut, and he is just trying to fuck her,” said Phillip, as he pointed at a girl in lacy tank top and mini skirt, who was sitting on the lap of a boy with brown skin and bleached blonde hair. He and I were standing on the terrace of a nightclub as the sun rose, and all of the kissing that had been done clandestinely between recent lovers was revealed. I blushed, but he did not look at me.
What would he have said about me if he knew that he was the 8th guy I had kissed in that one single nightclub, over the course of a year and 47 visits to it? He would have called me a slut too. I felt alienated from him, although he then took my hand. Did he think I was a slut, since I had just kissed him after the second night we met?
Just then the girl in the lacy tank top stood up and walked past us, followed by the boy with the dyed blonde hair. She walked about ten feet in front of him.
“What are you doing with that girl? You know she is a slut, don’t you?” said Philiip.
“Yes I know, I’m just trying to fuck her,” replied the boy.
Phillip looked at me, as if to say “See?” but I said nothing. What could I say? I thought of how much I like to kiss people when I go out and dance, does that make me a slut I wondered? And suddenly I felt horrible about men, about all of the times I had kissed men who were just trying to fuck me. It all seemed so dirty to me. I just wanted in some way to be loved and to play a little game, but their intentions went farther.
And I looked at Phillip as he stood next to me, with his beautiful face and body glowing in the sunrise. I thought to myself, he would never love me if he knew me, he would just call me a slut too.
August 9, 2008 at 6:28 pm |
It rolls down to perspectives. Maybe to him he may see you as a slut, maybe not. In your case, I know I wouldn’t cuz my perspective is different. Honestly I dislike sluts, true, but you have your reasons, and they don’t seem so bad. Some women dress sexy and it’s fine, but if they wanted to simply toy with men just to make a mockery of them, that’s being a slut.
But to have a good time and be a little naughty, who wouldn’t want to spice up their sexual life? Some just want to be naughty, and as you said, some guys intend to go further, but not all men are like that, just that a majority ARE like that sadly to say. Are you a slut? Well my dear, just know that some WILL label you as a slut, but some won’t, and I’m one of em